As a child, you see things happening around you. There are a lot of things, some good, some bad, but where do you get the consciousness to decide what is good and what is bad. Maybe by the fact, the way people are getting affected by that thing, but again, how do you see thats a good feel or bad. Okay, leave that, its just like what came first, chicken or the egg. Somehow, the childhood shapes you, not exactly, but in a way, it tells you what is right and what is wrong. The things that you have seen, are not all though, which unfortunately, my friend you realise only when you step ahead in life.
Just like everyone else, I too had my moments. I always thought, "hey! that man could have just done that thing and boom!!! things would have been different. Why did he choose to suffer the pain?" I thought that when my time comes, I will be there, standing out of crowd, making a difference (oh come on, stop laughing at me). I apparently tried to do that. This very blog was an attempt for same. I don't know if I really bring a change to anyone's mindset, but i would hope that i really do, and i'll be glad to do so.
I have seen people taking rash decisions, so I tried to learn calmness. Though I am far away to say that I have learnt it, I realise how in name of calmness, I chose to separate out from people. The calmness became silence, that was not exactly what I wanted to achieve.
I have seen people comparing one with another, and I said come on, why do you need to compare two persons. They are their own versions, and just to please one common person, why someone has to be like other one, I mean just why. I decided I wont do so, but here I am, working at a place which I took because someone else did a similar job which yields good money. In name of not comparing people, I stopped giving a damn about most of the people.
I saw people abandoning other people, the people they loved, because at some point of time they made some mistakes in their lives. I said, I will stand for the person I love. I did and understood why people chose to be with it.
What do you achieve trying to create elixir? The poison for yourself? Maybe, thats not all, and as I always say, thats not the complete picture. And I really hope, there is a good time coming ahead but they say it right, until unless you burn yourself, you are never going to get through the fire.There are 2 paths from here, either you choose to be done getting haunted for the philosophy you have advocated for, or you choose to stand up again and again, because its the ideology that you carry, defines you. You are what you choose to stand up against.
