It was a Tuesday night, when I was turning all over floor with excruciating pain. It definitely wasn’t a life threatening one and this is not a comparison with pain any of you have endured. But, in that moment, when I looked around with eyes full of pain, I knew one thing, that if these were my last moments, I would definitely be regretting the way I have led my life. Living a measured life, not exploring the world enough, failing to express my feelings towards her, not pursuing my childhood passion, not challenging myself enough, these were just couple of things that crossed my mind at that moment. For a second or two, there was an adrenaline rush inside me, which made me forget all the pain and made me realize that there’s lot more in this world outside that 2-BHK house, a lot more people, lot more learning, lot more world, and lot more life.
It’s when you see bad times, then you realize what’s the importance of good times. One thing is certain that one day you will run out of good times, run out of people to spend your good times with, run out of people to share your bad times with, or run out of life ultimately. Until we face scarcity of happiness or comfort at some moment, we never know the importance of it. Sometimes, by the time we understand all of it, it’s already too late. While spending the life, most of the people forget to live.
I didn’t want to be one of them, especially after that night.
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Last week, when I was asked to join a trek(about 20 km long), I joined it despite of a back pain. Yes, I was worried about my physical status (which definitely worsened), I joined it because I knew this is where I break my shackles. Hell with what happens to my back pain after that, I had to go, I had to explore the world.
I always wanted to play flute, but could not dedicate enough time. You know what, I am learning it. I wanna learn it like I own it, and not to display something on a stage, but for my own satisfaction.
One day I’ll die, you’ll die too. And, not every one will do something great that whole world will remember them. The aim of life should not be centered about how much money you make, how many people know you, or not even how big of a personality you are. If at the end of the day, you can’t sleep with a smile, then you’ve failed yourself. YES, YOU HAVE FAILED YOURSELF.
So, I’ve made up my mind. There will be many chances to live, and I’ve to grab all of them before its the final one. I’ve realized that I’ll have to live now, before it’s too late. You too should.
